"Too Bad So Sad..."

Last week I wrote that we were going in the following morning to begin a new Chemo treatment, and here is the update, it didn't happen, let me explain. When we arrived they did the traditional testing and blood work, they accessed his port and prepared him to begin his new treatment but before they began his results came back showing his platelets and cell counts were too low to begin the new treatment. So as I sit here tonight I find myself in the same moments as last Sunday night, nervous, anxious and fearing the unknown. Although we are not certain exactly how Daddy will react or how the chemo will effect him there are a few things we do know. He will have a chemo treatment called Folfirinox, which will last approximately 5 hours. Then he will go home with a pump and return to have it removed and the line flushed 48 hours later. The treatment is repeated every 2 weeks. This treatment is a lot more toxic, what does that mean exactly? Your guess is as good as mine, but I assume it means that while his other treatment targeted certain proteins found in the cells preventing severe side effect, this treatment will essentially kill everything, leaving Daddy feeling really crumby, tired, nauseous, pigment changes, and very susceptible to other immunity challenges. I told Daddy last week that I am not sure what will happen or how he will feel but he will not be ALONE and I feel the same tonight. We will go through this as a Family much like we have with everything else, Cancer wont break that bond; it can't, no matter how hard it may try it will NEVER EVER be able to destroy, dent or even damage the love our Family shares for You and for one another.
                                                                 So....

 CANCER,

YOU LOSE!!!

Now GO Away Please,

FOREVER!!!